DUDE - GUYS! OMG!

okay, first off i would like to thank mithen for reccing this fic to me - see, i've been recently getting into star trek slash - specifically, the one and only k/s. it's funny, because i used to watch TOS and TNG and Voyager with my dad, but i had just never found k/s as appealing as bruce/clark (my OTP). however, since nut!trek AKA star trek xi came out, i just couldn't ignore the previous pull of the k/s dynamic now that it's full of SO MUCH PRETTY OMG. so without further ado, here's the link to an absolutely wonderful nu!trek k/s story where spock is turned into a kid again and kirk takes care of him and puts him in cute pajamas and watches the princess bride with him!!!! *dies from the sheer amounts of adorability* read it! SOOO GOOOD! http://jade-dragoness.livejournal.com/57612.html it's called As Morning Shows the Day, written by jadedragoness.

also on the nu!trek and TOS front, i found the best song ever for spock. the lyrics are under the cut - check it!

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dear me,

feel free to stop being a complete fuck-up at any time. honestly it's long since gotten beyond being frustrating and discouraging, and has since progressed to sheer panic in regards to our future.

this will not fucking fly. the real world is going to smash you into tiny bits with its pinkie finger and you'll have no one to blame but (me) yourself.

the future of our relationship is looking quite grim, and that will only make things more difficult. it's not easy to function when you don't like yourself, and despite a few bumps in the road, we've gotten along pretty well so far, so it would really suck to start hating you now.

so snap out of whatever it is you're in, even if it's just being you, because this blows, and we're totally fucked already, not to mention if you keep this up.

knock it off.

no love,

me

OMG it's been forever since i've been around a scanner big enough for my drawings and had enough time to actually bother scanning them!

*dances*

i don't have a ton, cuz i didn't have *that* much time, but i'm very excited to present the following for your viewing/reviewing pleasure :P

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eh, i changed my journal layout.

i likes it. :P

So, I don't know about you guys, but I've been watching the ABC show Castle pretty obsessively since it started.

It's now about 5 episodes into its second season, and it's fucking fantastic.

It's a crime show, but based far more in reality than things like CSI as far as the resources at the disposal of the police in the program, and Nathan Fillion is in it and plays a writer shadowing our lead detective Kate Beckett, played by the lovely Stana Katic.

For those who don't know, Nathan was also in Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog as Captain Hammer, and in Firefly as Captain Malcolm Reynolds.

In the newest episode as Castle, he comes out wearing a cheap version of what he wore on Firefly as Mal and said it was his Halloween costume - dressing as a space cowboy. Oh, and he mentions Buffy a scene later, so lots of Joss references in the latest episode :)

ETA: here's the clip of him as Mal!


He also does a fantastic evil laugh midway through the episode that had me laughing out loud.

Soooo Gooood.

All of you should be watching this show!! You can watch all the episodes from the current season (season 2) on the ABC website and you can get season 1 from iTunes. It's SO worth it, seriously!

That is all.

i don't know how i missed this story when it was originally posted, but oh my god.

prepare yourself if you're going to read it: have tissues handy, and be ready to fuckin' cry. no, seriously. fics don't make me cry, but *this*. i was still sad almost 20 minutes later.

and it was also beautifully written, don't get me wrong...

i just...it's....gah, just go read it.

it's called Ghosts, written by the extremely talented harmless_one, it's PG, and it's Bruce/Clark:

http://community.livejournal.com/worlds_finest/480381.html

*sob*

so, things are going alright with school. i really don't like one of my classes, and i want to drop it, but i don't wanna piss my dad off. we'll see what happens with that. otherwise things are going fine.

in other news, it's been cold as balls out here lately, and i realized just how few long sleeved shirts and sweaters i have...i need to go buy some desperately. sigh.

also, i have some songs under the cut that you guys should download, like, yesterday :)

ETA: i tried to upload the songs so you guys could get them, but it totally didn't work. Boo! So you're kind of on your own, but yeah.

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stolen from my bestest friend in the whole wide world, naienchan :)

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i started classes the 24th, they're going ok, i was sick from the 24th until...well, my nose is still stuffy. the sickness also got in the way of the concert - for those of you who don't know, i LOVE LOVE LOVE Nine Inch Nails, and Trent Reznor (the guy behind it all...well, he kind of *is* nine inch nails) is retiring. so i won tickets on the radio to see his sold-out last show in chicago, and brought my little brother. it was my brother's first concert, and i've gotten him really into nine inch nails, so it was an exciting bonding experience. except that i'd been sick, and just as the band came out on stage, i got really nauseas (and no, i hadn't been drinking at all) and spent 75% of the show off where i couldn't see the stage (we'd had floor tickets) trying not to puke while my brother rocked out by himself, instead of next to me singing along together and having our special night together. i cried.

but i guess i can't change it. i've been bitching about it more than i think is nice lately, so i'm trying really hard to get over it.....

i also finally found an apartment - a cute 1 bedroom, and i just finished unpacking yesterday. it's nice having a place to live cuz while going to school it's really hard to be living on a couch...between being sick and being homeless, my school year hasn't started off so strong, but it'll get better.

also, my friend mai, who i stayed with while looking for a place, and i have gotten very close over the past couple of weeks. i'm really glad i got to spend time with her even though it was b/c i didn't have a place to live, because she and i had the chance to spend a lot of time hanging out and talking and we connect on so many levels. :)

other than all that, i guess things are fine and everything will be okay. my car's speedometer and gas gauge stopped working, so i'm waiting for my dad to send me the part, which is annoying, but yeah, it could be worse i guess. at least the car runs.

also, i'll be way better about updating in a week, when i get internet at my apartment...as it is now, i have to drive to the school to post shit.......

i love you all :)

first off, i'm officially moving back to minneapolis at the crack of dawn tomorrow (thrusday). i still don't have an apartment, so my dad's coming with me to shop for one and get it before school starts on tuesday. i'm pretty darn stressed about that.

also, i got the new laptop i'm required to have for school, and got all my pictures and music off my old laptop - but for some reason my itunes won't transfer my ratings, play counts, or play lists from my old system, which is quite upsetting to me, seeing as i rated every single one of my 2,600+ songs and have over a dozen play lists....

well, i may just bring my old computer with me and figure it out later.

in other news, something really really awesome happened to me yesterday! i called into the local rock station, and they *actually* picked up the phone. i was answering a trivia game. and i got the answer right! and that meant that yesterday I WON TICKETS TO THE SOLD OUT NIN SHOW!!!!!!!!!!! *happy dance*

it was totally surreal - like one of those things you know must happen sometimes, but just never imagined happening to you...like winning the lotto. like, somebody must win once in a while or there wouldn't be a lotto anymore, but you just never dream it could be you.

i'm so damn excited for this concert, even if it does mean i have to drive back out to chicago right after my first week of class in minneapolis.

i've been struggling to find a u-haul place that isn't booked, so i think i may be stuck just bringing what will fit in my car this time around, and then get a trailer the weekend i come back out for the concert and move my furniture then....

anyway, that's what's up. hope you guys are doing well!!

i love you all!

*hugs*

my god. just when i thought nothing else could possibly go wrong, because it seemed as if everything already had...

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well all, there's been a lot of crap going on lately. sorry i haven't updated, but i've tried to get on here and keep up with all of you. i can try to make a long story short on here under the cut and let you know what's been up...

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i took a 2 question personality test that was actually scary accurate.

my results and a link to the test below the cut...

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fun meme here!

Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you.
Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

Below are the five words given to me by pattinthehatt (my mom's cousin....which i think also makes her my cousin. or 2nd cousin. anywho, we're related :P)

1) Batman
2) comics
3) your art
4) future
5) religion

below are my responses...

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just because i was amused by my actually-pretty-accurate result:

Your Passion is Purple!

You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve. If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through. But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack. You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart.

You Are Smores

Unusual and unconventional, you make your strange ways work for you. You've got personality - no one's denying that!

also, some recent goings-on

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first off, happy 4th of july to all my fellow americans! (and to anyone else that may care)...

secondly, i've been hom for a week now, and have made absolutely zero progress in re-starting my project. i think i may need to work on other things for a little while and detox or something.

so to start off that process, i've diddled around and made a few icons, which are hiding under the cut and free to anyone as long as i'm given credit :)

behold!

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I'm heading back home. We may still work on the project via emails and scans and the occasional strained phone call. I find myself both relieved (for getting the hell out of here and back to friends, family, and people who don't treat me like shit all the time and then get made at me for reacting negatively to the treatment),and also disappointed for not being able to stick it out till the end of the project.

Though, as I said, we may still finish it....from far FAR away from each other. Cuz apparently he thinks this is all my fault just as much as I feel it's his. *rolls eyes*

His dad was really nice about it though. He still payed me for the time I put in and didn't yell at me or anything (this whole thing ended cuz Casey and I argued in the kitchen and when I yelled "fuck you" after bringing up that Casey told me to kill myself, his dad said "that's it, this is over") so yeah. Actually both of his parents are really cool people. I'll be sad to not see them anymore.

Sigh. Oh well. I did the best I could, and I guess that's all you can do.

I'm packing up the car to drive the 5 hours back home. Just thought I'd tell everybody.

*hugs*

so, casey told me yesterday that he was going to condense my story down to finish the script in time. makes sense, especially since the first chapter ended up at about 40 pages. he said he already had an outline for it, but was afraid i'd be a "raging bitch" if he just went ahead and did it, so he was asking me to make my own condensed outline too.

nicest thing he's done for me since i got here. i thanked him, and started on it today. i gave him a call and left a voicemail asking if he wanted to discuss out two outlines and combine them in person or if i should just email mine to him and talk it over on monday. he called back and told me to "cease and desist" and to just draw and that he was just going to do it how he wanted it. when i asked why and wanted to know what made him change his mind and what made him think it was okay to just go ahead and do that he started yelling and telling me i was crazy and overreacting and to just shut up and get back to work. he hung up on me.

i texted him and told him to treat others as he'd like to be treated. he texted me back and was like "i'm just condesnsing it, it'll still be true to your story but i don't want you to screw it up". what a dick! like i could screw up my own story for one thing, and for another thing, and i texted him and asked why he'd asked me to make an outline in the first place. apparently it was just to placate me, so i got mad and told him it was like he thought my opinion didn't matter, he said it didn't so shut up and draw, i got pissed, he called me an unreasonable bitch for *being* pissed, and it was just all around frustrating and painful.

all i'd wanted to do was combine our outlines and make some compromises so we could get through this thing. my shortened version leaves us with 6 chapters instead of 10, and all he'd really have to change is how *long* some of the sequences are. but he wants it down to 4 chapters and actually told me he *does* want to change some things. some i liked and thought were fine and some i didn't, but when i tried to tell him so, he just latched onto the negative, blew it out of proportion, and hung up and said i was uncompromising. which is fucking stupid cuz he wouldn't even let me finish. he does that to me ALL THE TIME. i start a sentence, he takes the first half of it and then throws it waaaaay out into left field and bases his argument on *that*.

oh, and he also told me today that i should put a gun in my mouth. yet he's also telling me i'm unreasonable, and unprofessional. right. yeah. telling your co-worker to kill themselves, or at least maim themselves is totally mature, professional, and not an overreaction to a re-wrtie on an outline at all.

god, what a total dick.

*lights 15th cigarette of the day*

so here i am still drawing this story, trying to finish a 40-page first chapter in a week and a half - started not this past friday but the one before (i have 25 pages of mostly-cleaned-up pencils so far, but i also have to ink and color) and this guy and his dad want me to have this thing DONE by Wednesday. it's fucking absolutely impossible, i don't care if you're jim fucking lee, it can't be done. i don't know what to do.

*flail*

Fuck my life.



(on a completely unrelated note, regina spektor's new album is quite good)

Casey (the guy I'm working on the comic with, and that should set this right up) just told me that he's a big fan of double standards. I said, "You mean being a hypocrite?" and he was like, "Whatever you wanna call it."

GOD that pisses me off. I only have a few things that'll get me riled up *every* time, and hypocrocy is *right* at the top of that list. UGH! Being a hypocrite (and especially being proud of it) is no more than a sign of immaturity, selfishness, ignorance, and an over-inflated ego.

This guy makes me wanna pull my hair out sometimes! Oh, and since I posted about him once on here, now he's always like "are you on livejournal?"

So now he's all pissed that I'm on here, even though i was up and working before he was. Aaaand, I told him I wasn't alone in thinking he was a total dick and read him some of the comments from my last post about him, and he called just about all of you wonderful people who sent me virtual support bitches, idiots, or cunts.

Awesome.

What a fucking chode.